One definition of resolve is to come to a definitive or earnest decision about; determine.
As we've seen, I've made numerous seemingly conclusive decisions throughout 2012, and rarely activated any of them. Where I did (this blog for example), I wavered in my commitment.
Rather than start the year with a list of resolutions, I'm going to approach 2013 with a clean white board. That's not to say I don't have some things in mind that I'd like to accomplish. But I am not interested in setting time limits any longer. If I look back over the last 4.5 years, so much of my personal disappointment rests with giving myself a deadline or saying that if something does or doesn't happen by a specific date, then an subsequent action must be set into motion. It's been incredibly limiting and in turn has served to put me in that self critical mode where all I see are my perceived failures.
I do believe strongly that there is a call that I'm missing. I'm not hearing the words or the signal isn't coming in clearly...I'm working on it...
So here are a few things that went well in 2012:
1) I've reconnected with more childhood friends and stayed current with many other friends via Facebook and LinkedIn. In every instance, it's been a value add.
2) I worked with then befriended a fantastic and bright person on one of my assignments; I know we have a great future ahead as friends and colleagues.
3) Started off the year feeling overwhelmed with 5 cats and now have relaxed into living among all of them. I've learned a lot working with a cat behaviorist and watching My Cat From Hell. I suppose it's my form of parenting.
4) I've read more books.
5) I started this blog.
5) I'm learning what gratitude really means.
There's more. For now, this will do.
Peek-a-boo 2013. I see you... Valentina